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Getting Overtired – Stress Trigger
Last week I was edgy. I had that open nerve feeling again… Things my son said hurt me more than they would normally, his attitude and action really getting on my nerves.
After dealing with as much of it as I could, I hid myself away in the bedroom. I lay down for a while and silently cried. Then it dawned on me… I’m tired. I’m wore out, exhausted and every sensation has been magnified a thousand times over.
I’ll admit, I do like to sleep. I use taking a nap or going to bed early as an escape. An escape from teenage angst, of a cluttered house I can’t manage to keep tidy, to escape the laundry piling up over the top of the hamper although I swear I just did 3 loads yesterday!
But with as much as I sleep, I rarely feel well rested. This past week even less so with the added exercise I’ve started to do.
I’m trying to find ways to rest, recuperate, even if I’m not able to take a nap (and honestly, trying to cut out much of time “sleep to escape” habit)
- Resting in a hot bubble bath is top of the list at the moment!
- When the weather warms up I’ll spend time lounging in my hammock, watching birds and clouds.
- Massage – the local massage academy offers 1 hour massage for $34.00.
- Painting. I tend to forget about how relaxing painting can be until I’m working on a piece and I have to stop because I’m getting drowsy. Or maybe I need to paint more energetically!
- Reading – a good laugh out loud book like something by Christopher Moore or Jenny “The Bloggess” Lawson’s “Let’s Pretend This Never Happened” as soon as it comes out in April. I don’t know for certain if Jenny’s book will be laugh out loud, but from reading her blog & tweets, I’m pretty sure it will be!
- Walking – even a short trip around the block does wonders for a negative attitude.
I’m trying to avoid mindless ‘empty’ activities such as watching TV or playing video games.
Hurrah for Friday! FROM HELL!
This week has been hell. I’m not exactly sure why. I’ve been in the most horrible mood and I know others have been ‘off kilter’ as well. I’m hoping whatever planet alignment has done it’s thing and after this weekend things will be back to normal. While I came home at lunch today to search for my new insurance verification, I burned some sage incense, hoping it would help. I’m not as cranky, but I’m still very very tense!
I’ m not looking forward to this weekend. I’m glad to have a few days off work, I just don’t want to be here. Having a teenage /almost adult daughter causes for some interesting scenarios. I want her to be independent and she’s fully capable now of doing what she wants (she’s 18 and “legal”). Luckily, she doesn’t have so much of an independent streak she’ll go off on her own without letting me know what’s going on. She also doesn’t have the finances.
When Dad gets home, we’re having a talk about the car. The car we purchased, with down payment money from The Grandmas, on the condition that she gets a job to help with the car payments. Otherwise, we could have gotten a cheaper car. Not the model she wanted, maybe not as reliable or with as low mileage, but something paid straight up with the money from The Grandmas. Nope… I went the extra mile, financing a car (with our shitty credit & awful interest rates), expecting her to go the extra mile and put a serious effort into getting a job. The time limit for getting a job will be up Sept 1st. It was up Aug 1st, but I pushed to give her another month. I really thought that once she had a vehicle, she’d make a serious effort to get a job and help with it. Wrong, and I set myself up for disappointment.
I’ve dreaded this weekend for the last 2 months. I would like to go away and hide until it’s all over. Either she’s bailed out by The Grandma or Dad takes away the car & puts a for sale sign in the window. I see now that’s a major reason why I’ve been bitchy and tense.
I’ve learned a lesson from it all. The boys will not be given anything on the condition they do something after the fact. They’ll get a job FIRST, then we’ll help with a car. They’ll earn FIRST then be rewarded / paid/ compensated – whatever.
Hopefully Dad will be home, we can get this talk over with and maybe I can relax a bit. If not, I have rum….
Rum and a hot bubble bath, sounds very nice right now!
